Wednesday, October 01, 2008

the rollercoaster

 

well it has been a bit of a rollercoaster lately in my life. When people told me that life begins at 40 i thought you started to be more relaxed, calmer, more thinking about the things you want to do and not want to .. in other words: you are getting old.

having had the party now alredy more than a month ago my life has been put upside down and back again . Not really stable yet, but we are working on it and enjoying every minute of the hectic times i’m living in.

i feel again that i’m alive and am so happy …. but more is to come soon … still want to savour the pleasure in a little cocoon :-)

happy travels

 

Toon

Monday, September 01, 2008

It's my party

and I cry if I want to .... Not that I feel suddenly sad and depressed, but one can also cry out of joy, or when emotions are coming up to strong. And this is a period of very strong emotions for me.  It's a fact , last Friday August 22nd around 16h00 I have finished my 40th year on this planet. Officially my life is spanning over 4 decades now , so time to celebrate with friends.

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I love bringing people together in a relaxed atmosphere, letting them enjoy the last week-end of summer. what I expected to be an easy ride turned out to be a little rollercoaster for me. I was a bit overwhelmed by the amount of people that showed up and the warmth I felt from people’s wishes and attention.

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From my son and daughter coming to sit on my lap and wrapping their arms around me whilst I was being prosaic about how big and brave the are becoming to friends and making me wish I just had more hours in a day and days in a week to see them grow ; over a gentle pad on the back from my father in which lay a feeling of pride that I have become who I am and a feeling of forgotten despair of a unmanageable rebel to the hug of my mother who whispered in my ears: you look happy with the undertone of I love you.

Or the way my brother and 3 sisters looked at me amongst the busy group of people forgiven me that I do not have enough time for them again but giving me the nod of: good to see you happy.

Or the way Emmanuel my old school buddy was bringing back the memory of old days as if it was only yesterday we were there dancing in front of the huge from ceiling to floor windows on the 5th floor in the gym showers at school, give the ladies of the elderly home across the street an glimpse of the Chippendales to come.

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Or the way people looked back at the time they worked or studied together and put it into the perspective of today. Or the way Piet and I already made plans for a next dinner of which we know it will be just fine .... and forget to mention my new glasses, the memory of holidays with friends or even the phone calls and sms'es I received ... (Mats I am coming over before the end of the year) ....

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Or the way we could slowly and in the most wonderful company could close down the party .... It just makes you a little bit wee.

And now all is quiet again, tomorrow is another day . Or maybe not, because I’m officially in a new age group.

I'm in the age group now that can try to fit again in the clothes his father was wearing when he was born because they are being considered as style icons.

I'm at an age that people have tendency to enlarge their rear view mirror and shield more and more the view that lies ahead of them.

I'm at the age that a scale becomes like a distant friend you never visit because you do not want to talk about the old times.

I'm at the age that it is just lovely to behave like Staler and Waldorf with your even older friend on the terrace of our favorite bar. 

I'm at the age that I still try to fit in fashionable clothes and glasses , but the love handles are giving me away.

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I’m at the age I am, nothing more nothing less; but above all grateful for all the moments I lived with all of you and full of joy for what we are today, looking forward to tomorrow because I know you will all be there ...

Happy travels

 

Toon

Friday, August 29, 2008

It's the end of the world as we know it

People, who are close to me, or even in this case distant, know that I have been having a very international life. Flying in and out European and global cities, being the sophisticated modern globetrotter, considering a plane to be the today’s bus or train.

But nevertheless I have always been very fond of returning home to Belgium. Is there something special about this country? Of course not, we are only 11 million people, but we speak 3 different languages, fight about who is superior above the other and are incapable of forming a government. At first sight it would be even horrible to live here. But for me it is just home, or let me re-phrase. It is more than just a country or a place: it's my home.

Especially Mechelen is my lovely city which feels more like a mix between a Tuscany village with a Provence mentality and the London weather :-).

And that atmosphere is always filling me with joy the moment that I get out of a plane in Brussels airport. Back to normality, back to things I love, back to the real flavor, the taste of the best beers in the world, the origin of French cuisine, ..... A moment that always brought the best out in me.

But today during my glorious homecoming my dreams have been shattered, my illusion of perfection and sweet harmony with my environment is blown to pieces.

I felt like that last Saturday morning when I was waking up after the Friday night celebrating my birthday with a night full of dark rum on the rocks. It felt as if the hammer that was with a constant rhythm of a swatch watch was again beating in my head, but a hammer that had gained force by training one week to show the world that Belgium is still a nation worthy of a gold medal..

I felt like that time that I took a girl I fancied to dinner in an expensive restaurant and we were eating a brilliant piece of Pre-salted rack of lamb on a bed of gratinated courgets , surrounded by tempura courgette flowers when she suddenly asked the waiter: can I have some ketchup.

I felt like ... well I felt so devastated and disillusioned; obscure forces have invaded my paradise and are sweeping the floor with genuine and authentic atmospheres.  STARBUCKS has entered Belgium.

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It already starts when you go in, the so inviting sofa’s that my American colleague describes as the only place he can get away from it all, look to me like the home smudges and stains having a party on the pants that are squeezing in. At the counter awaits my barista with a professional smile, trying to convince you that she is just coming from the coffee burning place where she handpicked the nice roasted beans, evoking the image that when she was 6 her grandfather Salvatore learnt her the secrets of the man handled espresso machine. Reality is, she is a Chinese student trying to make a living to pay for her studies at the University of Brussels who far more enjoys a jasmine tea and in a sense cannot stand the smell of coffee. Even that bad that at night when she comes home her boyfriend forces her to undress in the basement and put her clothes in the washer right away.

And than the choice, the paradox of choice. Do not ask for a coffee, but you should ask for a dry single shot soya latte with cinnamon topping and a sprinkle of vanilla or in other words: how to ruin a decent cup of coffee in 1 sec. The choice my god , I wished there would come and end to the endless combinations they are making and with every ingredient they add the take you further away from the essence of what coffee was meant to be. They take you with one slap in the face from the corner coffee shop in Pienza where Salvatore behind the counter was grinding the beans for the double espresso that would make my eyes light up by the first smell of the sent of heavenly black gold. With in the background the quarrelling butcher and baker shouting at each other : que volo. Let’s get the rules here right: there are only two ingredients in a decent coffee bar: coffee and milk, use both in any proportions you want and that’s where the story ends: ristretto, espresso, machiatto, capuccino, latte. Basta.

My homecomings are spoilt by the sight of the mass customerization of individuality and fake sense of authenticity. I never liked Starbucks, I even hated them when i found out that they had like a thief in the night nested themselves in the courtyard of the forbidden city in Beijing. I dislike them because they are the icon to me of loss of identity and false pretence.

This is a call for everybody of you to restore a bit of authenticity into your life. Go shopping to those neighbourhood stores like i have in my street. There is a cheesemaker who is the 4th generation , he can talk for hours about the cheese that would best fit the meal that you are preparing. He smiles when you enter and comes to you to let you taste a new cheese of which he believes you will love it. And than the bakery, it has been going from son to son and still today the bread tastes so wonderfully uncomplicated natural. She remembers the names of my kids and wishes even me happy birthday. And the grocery shop owner who holds back the last bottle of that special beer I love so much because he know that i come to pick it up almost every two weeks.

Ask yourself the question: every time you go into that Starbucks near your office or on your way to work. How many times did they greet you by your name and knew what you needed. How many times did they put up that song for you in the bar when they saw you were down r cheerful ...... it all happens just around the corner in those little villages within the cities, you just have to look for them ....

With Starbucks putting a stain on my homecomings i feel like It’s the end of my world as i know it and contrary to what REM was singing and i don’t feel fine with it.

Happy travels to just around the corner

Toon

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

taking the jump

as you all know maybe we have a landmark in belgium: the atomium. Atomiumthe remains of the Expo 58 , and now 50 years later there is a big party ongoing.

It is by far a nice structure to go and watch and who ever would come to the idea to make an atomium to the scale of this.

The whole construction is over a 100 meters high and could remind people of the Eifel tower. Although i always say: at least we took a form and shape that meant something :-). for more info look at http://www.atomium.be/

so that was 1958, but today the world needs more thrills .. and we got them. Riens and myself went to visit the Atomium just for fun as we do on a regular occassion, but now we really needed to get our minds of everything that surrounded us and went for a motorbike to brussels.

Arrived there we saw ropes hanging from the highest sphere of the atomium for a death ride. At first we hesitated and decided it was too stupid to fall for such a thing ... but time worked on us and did its best: de decided to take the jump.

Step 1: climbing up the Atomium is very nice. The elevator takes you quickly to the highest sphere, but we still had to climb through stairs and ladders to the highest point. You put your head out of the round opening in the highest ball and you go : wwwwaaaaaaauuuuuuww, this is high and also the feeling: why am i doing this :-)

Step 2: climbing out: ok: i admit i was scared and asked rapidly to get hooked up to the secured. You can i guess see on my face that i was not really confident in the operation;

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Step 3: getting ready. Now securely fastened to the life ropes; Riens was the first to be ready, i followed and got next to him to take the leap of faith.

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Step 4: here you go. As you can see the top sphere was just like a giant slide. The first 5 to 10 meters you just slide of the top sphere and suddenly you loose contact with the sphere and dive to the end point. Fear one: passing the sphere in front of us, felt like i was going to crash into it (maybe a warning that i have to loose weight). Fear two : once passed the second sphere it is still a long way down and everything looks so small ...

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Step 5: arrive and start shaking on your legs and telling yourself: you really need to grow up now you are almost turning 40. but ont he other hand tell yourself: how many people can say that they did a death ride with their son from the Atomium.

Happy travels

Toon

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Holiday is over

... a bit strange feeling that the holiday is over .... and also a rather hard one ...

but let me recap the events for all of you. We left for the south of france on Friday August 1st and spent a nice period in a wonderful villa in the south of france.

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they finally found out the truth about me: (for the non french speakers, the plate says: "that one is not beautiful, but he is gentle and beautiful on the inside" written in very childlike french

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The food was wonderful, both Jan (we went with friends of ours) and i made the best out of our cooking skills and gained at least 4 kilo's

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but most of all: we were very lazy. Recuperating from a hectic 2008 so far ()

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and the kids enjoyed it as much as we did

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Our plan for next year: make it two weeks and invite even more people, because being around people you love makes it all so much more enjoyable.

Happy travels

 

Toon

Saturday, July 26, 2008

2 out of 3 : just perfect

just wanted to let you know that this week-end i have a score of 2 out of 3 on my "most wanted, desired, wanted, loved, admired, cared for, ...." list  ..

1. The kids are back in town. After having travelled a bit too much lately they finally made it to my place, staying with me till August 12th.

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2. My bike

i finally made it, first trip on my bike since 4 months. My god finally the feeling of wind in my face, the gentle speed, the balance, ... i just loved it so much . It may seem little to all of you, for me it was just heaven ....

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all the dreams of travelling to Beijing, the adventure to Petra, going along the coast to Bangkok .. all things that were spinning through my head .... if only you could feel the dizzyness it brings ... better than any drug ...

on the number 3 i will not comment, just that it is sometimes so hard not being able to share with someone you love ...

anyhow: happy travels

 

Toon

life lesson

well, we are about to start the holiday here. Nothing really planned, just an option to go with friends to the South of France or go to the Wadden Islands in the north of Holland ... but nothing set yet. A bit the general tenure of today: nothing planned, just go with the flow.

on the life lessons: well one just has to learn the hard way. i was hoping that experience and dedication would be enough to push trough some opportunities, but seems that this is not the case. More and more it is important to have the connections to get a job instead of experience. Had a really interesting comment on that when i was discussing the interview process with one of my colleagues for a role in our team: the areas asked to probe seemed more experience and knowledge related instead of competency

Maybe that is the reason why some business fail, they put people without experience but with the right attitude. For me it is too easy to do this and opens up for too many mistakes. But maybe it is just me ...

Happy Travels

 

Toon

Sunday, June 29, 2008

what a week

well, there is some stress relief after last week. Riens and Lauran passed the exams with excellent results.

It was so nice to set next to Lauran when were have the meeting with her prinicipal and hear him saying that she is a very lovely person always willing to help and not afraid to speak up when things go wrong ...

and of course seeing riens performing in hte schoolshow for the lastyears of primary school ... he rocks

and than this week-end: some excellent MotoGP, but above all seeing Brenda and Sandy : feels so good to see people and just talk abot life over a glass or two (or more) in the sunshine ... can't wait to go to NZ with the kids now ..

and now : back to reality: a flight to Moscow and now here in a gray rainy environment .. but we still shine of all the experiences of last week ..

happy travels

 

Toon

Monday, June 23, 2008

Love your own city

it was a wonderful sunday in Mechelen and the kids and I had a wonderful time.

Saturday the usual market day with a nice terrace in the sun with friends, eating our pancacke, drinking our coffee. Finishing up the grocery shopping at the market and eating a summerish lunch at home.

Sunday after the kids went to scouts and so on i took the bike - oh yes baby, i'm allowed to go around on the bike, even with my brace - and strolled in the city ...

maybe nostalgic, but admit it just looks wonderful. One of the things i really enjoyed of being home so long: enjoying the city in all its beauty.

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Happy travels

 

Toon

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I'll blame it on ...

the sun would be too easy and totally not fair now she is always there and makes the day a whole lot nicer . So on what can i blame it that i have not writen on my blog for a while ...

nothing happend ? come on . we had the gathering of the old gang at Dell computer, which started slowly with a BBQ, but ended as usual with a late night . OK admitting, having a party on crutches is not ideal.

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It brought back some really nice memories of working with a smaal team and really "work hard - play hard" .

Of course all the stories were hitting the tables, from the days when we were taking out the fire hoose to the Friday evening contest of bag running; roller blading; rope pulling and beer drinking ... or the stories around the adoption of lyrics of a song to the work situation ..

all of this was nicely balanced off against a genuine interest in what people are up to today, what their little worries are and great smiles .. what their happiness is and sorrow in some cases ...

and above all what struck me : they haven't changed that much. Apart from the rough edges being taken away

so what is the next thing we can blame it on: work ? maybe it is has been very busy with the next fiscal year at Microsoft and a lot of changes for our teams, but you know me, i kind of like the thrills and excitements of changes. We even went to Krakow for an offsite meeting.

Maybe i could blame on the time ? yes of course that is a very reasonable thing to do since time is passing by so fast i had to realize that my daughter has bought her first pair of heels. My god i had to admit: it was hard realizing she and he are getting into a new phase in their lives

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so last try: let's blame it on the leg. In a way maybe, because i'm really getting sick of it. Getting around on crutches is not the ideal way to move around and the travelling i had to do is just not easy.

but all in all, i think i just was running to fast and not taking in enough what has happened the last six months with me personally .... So summer is here and feel i will take some time for myself ....

happy travels

 

Toon

Sunday, May 18, 2008

it runs in the family ...

good and bad news for this week. after my excursion to paris i went to the doctors and got the good news that everything is fine and that i will be without crutches in about 4 to 5 weeks. i can start putting pressure on the leg . in the first week he said no more than 10 kilo's and than increase till you can support your full body weight. my god i hope that he does not have in mind 10 kilo's more a week, this would mean a freakin x weeks ... :-) ... so far the good news

the bad news: it runs in the family. Riens my son was at the boy scouts this sunday, building a huge raft for the complete group, about 20 of them. you can imagine that a raft of that size needs to be rather big ... well he managed to get his leg under it when they were putting it to water : result: 3 rather big and deep cuts in his lower leg. because it happened at the bank of a river that was full of stones and rocks, combined with the deepnes of the cuts he had to go under narcosis so they could mend everything perfectly ... i felt so much pain when i saw him and before he left for the operation room ...

but he's back now and doing fine, a bit dizzy of the operation (i will now know how he looks when he is drunk the first time), but for the rest all ok ... so now the men of the family are cripple ... we will hold each other up rigth since for me it is my right leg, for him it is his left ...

what a family , anyhow: happy travels

Toon

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

A typical day in a train

What a morning. I finally got myself convinced that going for a one day meeting in Paris was not such a bad idea, till this morning. First of all it is getting out of your bed so much eelier than usual, lately I do have tendency to get out of bed by 7.45 instead of this morning 6.15.

Also it became very apparent that getting ready "quickly" is something that I need to redefine in my mind, together with an even better sense of co-ordination and planning. Meaning not forgetting the belt upstairs or having to go back up and down the stairs for the damn phone that is still there.

Nevertheless we managed to get ourselves with the help of a friend to the train station, where the first part of my journey started: Mechelen - Brussels South. The wonderful delights of peak hour train visit. First obstacle: damn the automatic escalators are not functioning and no elevator ... completely out of breath I finally arrive on the platform just in time to see the train roll in with the door just in front of me, but too far away. A horde of wolves jumped in front of me almost making me lose my balance.

Ok, I can understand, see that you are the one missing the last seat, in my mind nothing to worry because my train of thought was more like: I’m handicapped for the moment; one person will help me and offer his seat without a problem. But I guess the fact the train was arriving at the platform furthest away from the entrance, the broken escalator, all bad omens I guess.

Getting on the train was already a problem with a bunch of freaking zombies just watching me instead of handing a hand. When I finally managed to get on board the little hall had 4 seats:

seat 1: long haired alternativo; seat 2: Moroccan young lady with loud music; seat 3: public servant I guess, neatly dressed with moustache and his briefcase; seat 4:youngster with Adidas blue - yellow trainers listening to hip hop

situation: me on crutches not resting my foot trying to stay upright whilst the trains starts to move, next to me 3 other people standing (one of them smelled really really nice ) and 4 sitting down. overall feeling: an uncomfortable silence with nobody even daring to watch me or to look in my direction.

I felt the urge coming in me to start shouting on the ones sitting down. The alternativo I imagine was still yesterday signing a petition against racism and discrimination and believes that Tibet should be liberated; but handing of his seat: no way. The Moroccan girl always feeling so bad about being discrimated but being in a position to hand over a seat as a gesture: no way. The youngster in adidas yellow bleu trainers complaining that the world today is an evil place and that he is always misunderstood did not understand in his small brain that standing on crutches on one leg in a moving train is not really easy. And the public servant who kissed his wife goodbye at breakfast this morning wondering why people are so rude to him at the office cannot even find the decency to do something nice himself.

And I’m even not talking about the other 3 who could have said something or at least helped a bit. Conclusion: you are on your own buster, sweat it out because it is not my problem you are a bit less mobile.

Well I could go on and on about my frustration this morning, especially when also the automatic escalators where not functioning in Brussels and I arrived at the complete opposite part of the station as of where I needed to catch the train to Paris in which I’m writing this now. But I need to stop and regain my smile and look at it as an experience I will never forget :-)

 

Happy travels

 

Toon

 

Monday, May 12, 2008

summer is here

well indeed, although i'm not that mobile i can still enjoy the sun in the week-end. And this week-end was just wonderful, we even made a campfire.

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it brought out my skills as a boy scout and helped the kids to get the fire going. But we started the afternoon a bit colder . The kids were challenged to a dare to stay in cold rain water from the well for at least 1 minute.

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you can see on Lauran her face that she was a bit surprised on how cold the rainwater from my mum's well.

guess we are going back next week-end to do a little campaing i guess.

happy travels

 

T.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Father and son ...

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know that feeling: the first sun is out and it is very nice and warm. You can go out with a t-shirt and not feel a cold breeze or having to take 5950with you a sweater just in case of .... The mere fact of leaving the sweater behind is like a huge burden falling of people's shoulders, shaling of the winter and the gloom and opening up for a more relaxed way of life ...

we crawled up our chairs on the terracce of our favorit place De Cirque and started reading in our books. Riens finally took up reading a bit so and i'm on roll, now with " Motorcycle Diaries" from Che Guevarra, another freedom fighter :-) ...

afterwards a lovely Italian dinner with friends in their garden, la dolce vita does really exist, it is just a matter of expanding it out of the week-ends into the weeks, but that is somethign else.

The leg is coming along rather ok, although i must admit i'm not that confident for the moment on a full recuperation. Although the doctor said it would take time to heal one always thinks he can beat the clock. Let's wait and see on Friday the 16th when a new verdict will be given to me on the doctors visit :-)

for now as usual: happy travels

Toon

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Taking up the reading

Well there is no reall change to the immobility factor in my life apart from the fact i so much enjoy the spring in Mechelen and the feeling of doing fun stuff with the kids and friends, seated in a wheel chair ...

in light of my immobility i decided that instead of always writing e-mails or planning presentations it was about time to start reading again. Helpend and in a way pushed by my old neighboors i started reading the novel based on the life of Oswaldo Barreto Miliani.

i was so completely abosorbed by it that i forgot all notion of time and started reading friday night and finished the 476 pages long novel just now.

one always says the book picks the reader, and although that this book came to me recommended; my god did it pick the right reader.

Half a life story and half history lesson of the radical left-wing movements of the second half of the 20th century. From Ben Bella to Fidel Castro, from Che Guevara to Salvador Allende, many of the leading revolutionaries of our time put in an appearance.

The book is all about the search for belief in a cause, the recognition of the efforts done to put them in reality and desire to find a love to share it with. This put against the struggle to achieve the goals since one changes as a person and the wrong doings one causes by  letting his ideals and ideas take a too signigicant place in ones life ...

some quotes that maybe can also make you wanne read the book:

"What I cannot tell, is whether the people I left behind, the women I left, the love I spoiled and the pain I caused them was justified. More and more, I fear it was not."

"I didn't achieve much good -- I spent a long time getting nowhere."

http://www.amazon.com/Swallowing-Stones-Lisa-Aubin-Teran/dp/0060781041

For now: Happy Travels

 

T.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Rear window

i feel a bit like James Stewart int he Hitchcock movie "Rear Window", or at least that is what a friend compared me with. And indeed it is amazing what one can observe from his window looking out on one of the center streets of Mechelen.

From strawling people to a guy in a suit who is running like mad and finally trips and falls on his face. From the shop keepster in front of the house who smokes too much to the couple on the 4th floor who seem to be arguiing constantly ... it is something very nice to observe people and absorb the vibe of a city and life in that way.

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For the rest life is going its own way here. I have the impression i work even harder than before despite being immobile and the requests from the office do not seem to stop leaving me hardly time to do all the things i had in mind during this "calmer period" ...

i might not be running in reality, my minds is doing all the fast legwork and of course also my fingers on the keyboard. But aside of that i have been able to put a bit of order in my pictures (not a good idea because it makes you rather melancholic) , have created some playlists for my son his drum practice and we were out shopping on Saturday. Father in the wheelchair being pushed by Riens and Lauran.

The shopping was clothing for Lauran and i must say we did go for some very nice things. Green will be the color of the summer and she got two green t-shirts , a white one and a lovely white skirt. Was fun for me too to see how they start having their own idea and preference, but still open to suggestions ... next week-end Riens will be the lucky one to get some clothes.

But my god are they growing up .... I never had the habbit of talking to them in a childish way, but now with them growing up it amazes me how mature they are capable of talking to me and of sharing what they feel and think. Sometimes very comfronting and rather difficult to answer .... especially if it refers to recent wounds in the heart and mind .....

for now i know they will join me in my travels and hope they will be there always

 

Happy travels

 

T.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

The reality check

well have been to the hopsital today. I got in with 3 questions in my mind and about 15 stiches in my leg. (the proof below in this post : not for the weak at heart :-) )

Question 1: when i will be able to rest on my right leg.

Stupid me was going in with the idea that i will be able to rest on my leg in the coming one or two weeks. Well reality check: not before the next check-up on May 16th and he was very firm about it.

Question 2: when will i be able to start flying and travelling:

well, my US trip of April 26th is down the drain although i did not have high hopes for that one; but D-day is now set to 22nd of May.

Question 3: when can i start full fysio for the lower leg given the condition and the difference between left and right

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well also here a bummer, not before i can have my foot in a 90% angle. but i can remove my brace from time to time to at least air the leg a bit :-) and start little excercise the foot and upper leg.

but for now it is back to the sofa with the laptop on my lap and working through all the mails and conference calls. On top of it i need to sort out the medical insurrance. Advice for everybody: check your insurrances and make sure you get the right coverage :-)

 

Happy mind travels

 

Toon

if you want to see the stiches clikc here

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Are you being served

being immobile has its advantages. Lauran is this week-end here (Riens is as said on week-end with the Scouts). So yesterday i have been stuffed with a wownderful chocolate cake ...

and this sunday morning , i have been served pancackes, better than anywhere i have eaten (yes, even better than the International house of Pancackes in the US).

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wonder what she will cook up for me for lunch :-) ...

Happy travels

 

T.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Some observations after 2 weeks of immobility

well, it is now two weeks since my little accident that got me here. in my sofa and like one should do ever so on: a status report:

 

Health: is going well. Last Tuesday i went on a medical check in the the hopsital and the doctor is happy when he saw my "raostbeef". I call my surgery the "roastbeef" because with the stiches i looks like a roastbeef before it goes into the oven :-) .

They have changed the cask for a fixed brace, which make my life not easier. I admit: i feel less safe in the brace than the cask. The weight is a problem and just the feeling of tripping is higher. Also sleeping is less easy ....

my physical condition is ok, but amazing to see i have lost alround muscle in my right leg. evn with the suggested daily excercise it is melting like snow for the sun, so rehad : here i come and i will be there for a while :-)

Family: i haven't lived with my mum since i was 12, which is now 28 years ago, but now she is back . She helped tremendeous on everything and so has the rest of my family. if i look around myself and hear sometimes friends talk about their family i can only say: I'm one lucky bastard. We just love each other and they just spoil me.

Friends: if the saying " in the hour of need one knows his friends" is a sign i'm blessed. Thanks to all of you who have offered me help i one shape or form, sent me messages to keep up the spirit, making me laugh and taking care of all.

Horror: strange caption, but it needs to be said. i have an injury, but last friday i went out in my wheel chair to go out and have some fresh air, and suddenly i felt like a wincher or complainer. why ? because all the stories i had to hear from my people i came acros: oh my god that is bad, but you know my uncles brother in law his kid's best friend once had torn of his achilles tendon and by the force of the snap cut open his leg. whilst he was lying there a dog passed by and started chewing on it , he chased the dog away and started stiching himself like a real rambo. (this story is not true of course, but is just a flavour of the stories people seem to have the urge to tell to me; as if they want to comfort me by telling stories that are worse than mine.

Time: more time: FORGET IT. first of all everything you do takes a lot more time. Think about normal things i live as taking a shower; have your breakfast. (try to get a bottle of milk out of the fridge on one leg with crutches) .... and suddenly 1/3 of your day is gone. you try to do your excercises to adhere to the fysio's instruction .. and then the office: a lot of people consider this not an illness. Yep but Toon you are sitting in the sofa: you will be bored to death if we do not keep you busy. Conclusion: feels sometimes i read and answer more e-mails than when i was actually working and not on sick leave.

 

well but it is week-end now, my mum went home for the week-end, but Lauran is coming so we are going to have some nice relaxing time together. Riens just leaft a scouts week-end and father and daughter will do some cooking and baking i guess ...

happy travels

T.

 

 

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

My office : try it yourself

Maybe not the best quality picture, but this is how my office looks like for the moment. A table to rest my pc on when i need to change position, my leg higher up and so getting through the day.

Somtimes i just need to take a rest becaus emy back startst to hurt and the position is not that comfrotable .. I sometimes wonder what the definition is of sick leave, but that is also a bit my own fault i guess ...08 my office when immobile

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happy travels

 

Toon

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Some generations of motorcycle fanatics

 

If there is one man in my motorcycle history I admire and love to spend time with it has to be Jeremy Ferguson. I met Jeremy when I started 199working at Dunlop and have had since a very good contact with him. Jeremy is Manager International Motorsport for Dunlop and the largest portion of his time travelling with the MotoGP circus around the world.

I love to listen to him about how the world has changed (not that he believes that everything was better before, it was just different; he is a very positive person with a tremendous energy. We enjoy the same simple things in life (although he is now convinced that I do too dangerous things after my ski accident): good food, nice wine and watching good racing.

This week-end he paid me a visit after my surgery along with Isabel and Florian (Florian is an ex colleague from Goodyear Dunlop) and although we covered everything in our discussion: from American politics, to travelling, living abroad, food to of course Motorcycle racing. Even Ines who visited as well - although not a motorcycle freak- was amused by way we could about these things so passionate.

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Now i need to start working on trying to convince him to join one of my projects that is still under development. A little secret for now, but one of those pet projects that keeps me smiling and thrilled having a passion that could be combined with my knowledge in digital.

Stay tuned, but for now: happy travels

Toon

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

an uncomfrotable truth

 

well that is the least i can say.  The hospital was not that fun, That's me still with high hopes on a speedy recovery. hospitaal 1seemed they had to work a bit longer on my lang than planned. Normally they can easilly attach the tendon again without a problem. For teh people with a lack of imagination or a very high  degree of curiosity hereby a link on what they actually did:

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There was a large gap between the ends of the tendon because it snapped rather high close to the muscle. . The gap needed to be bridged in some manner so they removed some tissue from my foot as well to bridge the gap.

The hardest part is to keep a position that does not hurt too much and does not make the leg go completely numb. I tried to work last night, but this morning i had to give up since the postion in which i have to lay down combined with the position in can hold teh computer are not optimal.

Suddenly you realize how difficult life can be when you are immobile. Everything takes a lot more time, from basic things like taking something to drink, to going to the toilet: count the quadrupple of the normal time.

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Anyhow the decision was foreced on me today not to work till beginning of next week, something which was not appreciated by all colleagues. Althiough i must say that the majority has been very supportive and understand that although not sick, going under total narcosis and having surgery has an effect on the concentration levels of people.

Also my mum is here to help me out a bit. It is funny on how we sometimes can work on each others nerves in such situations, but bless her for the willingness to help me out.

For the rest i'm missing out on the fun at work (i cannot be involved in sme very very interesting projects in my area and there is of course my former bosses leaving party that i will have to miss)

but at the end of the day: i will be travelling soon

happy travels

T;

Friday, March 28, 2008

Everybody has an achilles

 

and mine is torn today after a stupid slide on the slopes. It was a very stupid and totally not spectacular, just slightly missed a stop on a steep slope, slide and fell backwards down .. and snatch ... achilles gone in my right leg and torn muscles in my left leg ..

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that is me there on the stretcher, being brought down to the hospital. I must say nice and very skillful people those guys from the rescue team. Of to the hospital and there the nurse put me on the torture bench to undo my boots.

At first she just thought that the muscle was torn, but with further examination she broke the bad news to me: 3 MONTHS OUT OF ACTION .... my face went pale and i saw all my travel for work being cancelled and me stuck to the sofa for at least 1 month.

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So here am i, stuck on the sofa, waiting to go back tomorrow. Still doubting to fly home or to drive with the kids; not that i will be driving; that is impossible. I still have the option to fly home, but that would be without the kids and not sure i really want this ... I guess with a correct setting in the car i will manage ...

On Monday i will know more on what are the next steps ... keep you posted

Happy travels to you all .. i will stay put a bit for now

Toon

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

is white really a color ?

 

well who the heck cares when you are sitting in the surroundings of skislopes.

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The kids are having a wonderful time. Riens is a star when i comes down to snowboarding (ok the rule for me is: everybody born before 1970 is not allowed on a snowboard, so needless to ask : i did not make a complete fool out of myself by trying)

DSC_0395By the way it was Lauran's birthday today, she turned 13 today. Please do not make any reference to the movie 13, i had nightmares about it :-) ). That is her going down the slopes.

Usual stuff for the birthday: the nice breakfast, cakes, her favorite evenign dinner and the thing she loves the most: Stories from the old days. So with my older sister (with husband and kid) and younger one we had a lot of stories to tell to her about the gold old days.

Even admitting to smoking the first cigarettes with my brother and even remembering the brand: Boule Nationale. Reminds you of the how quickly things can come and go.

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trying to enjoy still the last two full days of skiing, but can not reflect on what my daughter was saying this evening when at 21h00 i opened up the computer to check the urgent mails: Dad, is there really no way you can do without ..... and in a way she is right, but only this week 5 phone calls of people apologizing to disturb me on my holiday, but they neede just one info from me. It's strange that the definition of holiday is change to : the days that you are 12 hours in front of a screen, but only 2 if your're lucky. And the worst of all: people expect you to be ....

well happy travels to area's without Wifi and Cell reception

 

Toon

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Amsterdammed

well i'm here in amsterdam for a team meeting. About two months ago i would have looked forward to coming over, now i feel a bit strange to be in a city where once part of my life was taking place.

I wonder sometimes if the surroundings can be witness of what happend, asking myself why they are so quiet ...

was in the bar where i earned my name as Mr Oban . Thanks to Mats and Cecilia i once got tricked into a whiskey tasting and bullish me stated i love Oban so much. During the drinking session they swapped my Single Malt Oban for a blended whisky Famous Grouse .. i failed the test miserably . I still have the nametage Mats prepared for me on my next visit to Sweden. Also i feel the salt taste of the turkish yoghurt i drank with the liters the next day to wash away my hangover .

also the numerous meeting at Mediacatalyst come to mind and fill me with a nice warm feeling and a smile on my face. My god did we do some brilliant and amazing works in those days.

Not to forget the last memories of Amsterdam when a possible future moved closer by, but then suddenly returned to move away from all dreams and hopes.

So yes, the surrounding are quiet now that all of the above is no longer there. Did i come to terms with it ? With some of it yes, with others things no way ... I feel i still carry the longing for those things in my mind and now in the deep of the night i dare to admit that, tomorrow i will have to rise and shine and try to get the same feeling of once before ...

happy travels

 

Toon

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

too much travelling ....

 

towards destinations i did not had in mind. Just back from one week in Seattle on Sunday. Arrived there last week on Sunday and had a very busy week with the kick-off and planning meetings. And of course a perfect enjoyment of the view from my room.

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don't know what it was but for the first time in a very long time i was really feeling jetlagged. I woke up the first two days at 4 o'clock in the morning, so not such a good thing if you know that after every meeting there was a dinner or drinks.

Pikes marketArrived back home on Sunday after some shopping : Converse shoes for Lauran and T-shirts of Metallica and Nirvana for Riens. For me there where just some books on China and Mongolia. I loved Pikes market, a public market just at the waterfront of Seattle.  I even enjoyed a nice Phili steak sandwich at the diner there.

This week started off also with travelling a lot. Yesterday monday and today i was in Paris sitting down together with the Channel team to give a feedbakc on the meetings of last week. Juggeling time to make sure we have everything covered and of course not enough time ... rushing back home and now ready to tuck in for a train journey to Amsterdam tomorrow and Thrusday; friday back and forth to London.

But as a friend of mine said: i love it ... but i guess this time it is getting to me. Maybe also the rebound of all that happened in the last weeks, feels so stressfull and exhausting.

But: friday 21st we leave for our ski holiday. Only 4 trips are seperating me from the relaxation of one week of absolute snow and fun with the kids.

Happy travels

 

T.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Getting used to it ...

i'm  getting used to a different life again. It is strange but the silence struck me last week-end. After having spend a nice lunch with Rob, Marjon and their kids i went home to have a bit of time for myself and it struck me that it was so silent in the house. No music, no Online games, no phone ringing, no movie playing, nobody walking around ... just silence as companion.

It feels strange to sit in silence with only your own little voices in your head. It may sound very depressing, but it is not . It felt good to be in complete silence, away from everything; only yourself.

Silence makes reality very clear. Without the kids this week-end and now also without travel campanion , silence brought up the questions in me. What have i done, what shall i do , why did i do this, why did i not do things , the complete story of the why .... Why will remain unsolved for now due to the absence of conversation, but will find its solution in what i make of what is left and where roads will cross again one day ...

Speaking about roads and travelling, me, myself and I decided that we are going to start planning again. Not only will we be preparing for the ski trip in 3 weeks time. it is also time ot look at the summer holiday. Lauran give her suggestion: renting a place with a pool in the south of France and invite friends to have a nice smooth relaxed and chilled two weeks.

So we will be looking for partners in crime to go with the three of us to enjoy the life in Provence or Dordonge . Good food , good wine, evening talks, relaxed brunches ...  we will keep you posted on what is going on there.

tibetBut also the big travel is itching more and more: Asia here i come ... first book is bought on China. You see, life is all about travelling and the anticipation to do so.

 

Happy travels

Toon

Sunday, February 24, 2008

the proces

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As you can see it is basically an old farmhouse she lived in, with loads and loads of free space around it. Riens even was playing with Renaat (his nephew ) in the same trees my brtoher and I used to climb.

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Their laughs brought back the memories of the place i grew up till is DSC_0252was about 12 years old. I

On the left you can see the view of the room my brother and i were sharing at the attick. and the land where we had goats and sheep to keep us busy during the whole year ....

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Happy travels

Toon

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

an unreal world

 

it is strange to be in Dubai, feels so unreal. A ski slope in the middle if the dessert. Of all things can you imagine that people are coming to Dubai and take the opportunity to go skiing .... and than having a large crowd looking from the pathway of one of the biggest malls i have ever seen ... So unreal: a bit like my own life for the moment. img051

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Toon